A couple of days ago I felt like I was getting a cold. I have diabetes so I have to take these things seriously because it can affect my sugar and my sugar can get out of hand real quick. I was just going to wait to see if it went away, but by te second day I had had enough. I have to take care of my kids so I needed something to dry me up and make me comfortable. I went to the store and bought this diabetic stuff to help dry me up and to hopefully make me functional. I took the medicine around eight in the evening and never thought another thing about it except for how much it made me feel better.

I layed down to go to sleep around 11:30pm and couldn't catch my breath!! I fel like I couldn't breath and my chest and arms were tingling. I was so scared I jumped up and told my husband to call 911! I knew something was wrong but in my panicked state I couldn't figure out what. I had a really hard time catching my breath and to tell you the truth, I thought I was having a heart attack!!! Ijust kept thinking I am only 29 years old this can't be happening! I was so short of breath and my chest was so tight and the tinglimg in my arms was so out of control, it all just added up to a heart attack! I then thought of everything I hope I did in case I was actually dying. I know I sound so dramatic, but I really didn't know what was happening! I was thinking did I tell my kids I loved them, kiss my husband before we went to bed, did I see my parents today, have I talked to my sisters? I called my mom to come down and take me to the hospital. When she got there I started to feel a little better, but I still had the tingling in my left arm, which was not letting me relax!! I finally said to my mom, "Let's go to the hospital I will never be able to sleep otherwise!"

We got to the hospital around 1am and checked in. When we got there I was feeling a little better but still had numbness and a little shortness of breath. I was really scared!! They called me back and gave me an EKG right away and it came out NORMAL!! Then I started to feel even better knowing I wasn't having a heart attack! They came in and did some tests and I had a chest x-ray and just sat there. I couldn't go to sleep because I was affraid I wouldn't be able to breathe again!! The tests finally came back....

I had pnemonia!!! What!! pnemonia, how can that be, I feel fine other then a little cold!!The weird part was, all my vital signs were perfect, I had no wheezing, and my sugar was not elevated at all!!! I do know one thing, I was so relieved to know that I wasn't having a heart attack!!!! They gave me a shot in my butt and sent me on my way!! By thw way, the shot hurt really bad!!!

You know, I was so relieved to know I really was going to be okay! It was just the scariest feeling know that I couldn't catch my breath and to have symptoms of a heart attack, that was just so scary!!! I am home now recovering and just taking it easy. My mom and sister came over and helped me with the kids. Dale took them for the day the other day so I could rest. Thank goodness for my family or else I would have a hard time resting and recovering.

The best part of the whole thing is that, I am not having a heart attack and I got home before my kids woke up!!!


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The new year for me is a time to look back on the year that has gone by (way to fast) and reflect on the things that have happened in my life, both good and bad. I am really not good at making resolutions, because really it is just like setting myself up for failure!! I never really stick to my resolution, so why bother?

I am this year going to try to improve on things in my life! I am going to turn over a new leaf and try to have a newer positive lease on life! This year there have been amazing things that have happened to me and my family. 

 For one thing, my husband still has a job and we have a roof over our head which I thank god for everyday!!!!!

My daughter started school this year for the first time I was so sad at first, but as time has gone by, I think it is the best thing ever! She really loves going and seeing her friends and learning new things.

My family has turned a whole year older and we still have our health Having your health is most important of all.

I have traveled to some amazing places and shared the experiences with my children!

Grace got rid of her pacifier and never looked back.  

I have learned many new things about myself that I never knew before and it feels really good

I have grown closer to my husband and our communication has improved by like a thousand!! Communication is key!!

I started my blog, which has been so much fun!

I also started my jewelry designs and actually sold one of my pieces!!!

I have made some new friends that I have really enjoyed getting to know

Everyday I thank god for all of the blessings in my life and as this new year is getting ready to kick off, I can't wait to see what it has to offer  2009 was a good year for me and I know 2010 will be even better!! I am going to be positive and try to look on the positive side of things from now on. I am also going to try to have more patience with my children and other people!!! These are just a couple of things I am going to work on as this new year approaches!!!

Is there anything anyone else is going to try to work on this new year?

I really would just like to wish everyone a happy, safe, and most importantly HEALTHY New Year!!!!!

2010 is going to be the year of the MOMSTAR's!!!!!!!!!!!!!

        

Ya know when I started my blog I wanted it to be this huge success!! I wanted people to read it comment on it and really love it! I really didn't know what it meant to have a successful blog. Did it mean that you had five thousand hits a day, that you made forty thousand dollars in advertising, you had six thousand comments a day? I really didn't know? I wanted people to enjoy what I had to say, and I wanted people to laugh!

Time has gone by and posts have been blogged and I realized that, my blog is successful! I don't really have that many visitors to my blog, but I do have a couple of loyals, which I appreciate!!! 

My blog is successful to ME! That is really all that matters! Like I said in the beginning I wanted other people to love what I had to say, then as time went by, a lot of people didn't care. Then when I really thought about it, my blog was successful because I was writing down my feelings on paper  a website so years down the line I can look back and remember everything that I thought or things that happened on that day!

I don't have a journal that I write in on a daily basis, but I do have a blog, a blog that can be used as an archive to look back on when my kids are older and I will remember what happened on that day. I would never in a million years remember what happened on May 30, 2009 if I had to use my mental Rolodex, but I can look back on my blog and it will bring back all the memories of that day!

I can remember that Grace said she wubs me poreber and a day, or that Maggie was running up the slide just like I used to do, or the time they drove me crazy and all I wanted to do was run away!!!!!

I guess I just realized that it doesn't matter how many visitors I have or comments people write or how much money I make on my blog, it really is just successful to ME! I can write down my true feelings without feeling bad and have an archive of my feelings and memories of my time with my kids that will never go away!

For that I am so thankful I started this blog!

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I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of a six year old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make ripples with rocks. I want to think M&Ms are better than money, because you can eat them. I want to play kickball during recess and paint with watercolors in art. I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summers' day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple. When all you knew were colors, addition tables and simple nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. When all you knew was to be happy because you didn't know all the things that should make you worried and upset. I want to think that the world is fair. That everyone in it is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

Somewhere in my youth...I matured and I learned too much. I learned of nuclear weapons, war, prejudice, starvation and abused children. I learned of lies, unhappy marriages, suffering, illness, pain and death. I learned of a world where men left their families to go and fight for our country, and returned only to end up living on the streets...begging for their next meal. I learned of a world where children knew how to kill...and did!!

What happened to the time when we thought that everyone would live forever, because we didn't grasp the concept of death? When we thought the worst thing in the world was if someone took the jump rope from you or picked you last for kickball? I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by little things once again. I want to return to the days when reading was fun and music was clean. When television was used to report the news or for family entertainment and not to promote sex, violence and deceit. I remember being naive and thinking that everyone was happy because I was. I would walk on the beach and only think of the sand between my toes and the prettiest seashell I could find. I would spend my afternoons climbing trees and riding my bike. I didn't worry about time, bills or where I was going to find the money to fix my car. I used to wonder what I was going to do or be when I grew up, not worry about what I'll do if this doesn't work out.

I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind and making angels in the snow.

I want to be six again.


My birthday is tomorrow and I am going to be 29! I know I am not old by any means, but I read this poem when I was a kid and I always remembered it. As time goes by and life happens I thought of this poem! Since my birthday is tomorrow, what better time to share it, because you know I wish I was 6 instead of 29!!!!


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Now wonder I can't lose weight!!


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Whoever designed this slide has obviously never heard of safety first!!!

When I was a kid I remember this slide being a dream come true! You would get a running start and run up it as fast as you can just to slide right back down again! It was always so fun and reckless! I remember it looked like it was about thirty feet tall and you were going to run into the clouds when you got to the top! I remember climbing up the slide seemed like you were climbing up a straight wall it was so steep and if you had the right clothing on, you would fly down like a rocket ship! I remember just having the best time on this kind of slide!! I think one of the best parts was, there were no sides to hang onto, so if you fell because you got to cocky and went to fast or if you just lost your footing, you were in a world of shit! It was a long way to the ground my friend!!!

But, the other day we went to the park while we were in New Hampshire and this slide was there! Guess who gravitated right to it? Maggie! I was a nervous wreck watching her run up the slide that had no side rails to hang onto in case she got to cocky or just lost her footing! When she climbed the ladder which still seemed like it went to the sky, the only problem was, if she fell it was a long way down my friends!! She would get a running start and run right to the top just to slide back down, it really just didn't seem as fun this time! The thought of my Maggie falling off a slide that seemed like it was thirty feet tall and no side railings for her to hold on to in case she slipped just didn't seem fun anymore!

As I watched her run up and down the slide, just like I used to do, it brought back so many memories of being a kid and going to the playground and just having the most fun you can have!!! Can you imagine the most dangerous thing in life to worry about is if you are going to make it to the top of the slide without falling off!!  Maggie really did have a good time just being a reckless carefree kid teitering on the edge of disaster with one false move to the right or left and it was fun and scary to watch all at the same time!!!


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MOMSTAR

        

I have been away for a while and not blogging! I really don't have a good reason for it except, I traveled, decorated for Christmas, tried to unpack, trying to get my house ready for the holidays, and sleeping!! For some reason I can't stop sleeping!!! I did notice that when you don't blog for more then one or two days, people don't visit your blog! Hum, how weird!!!

I am back in the blogging game again! I really do love to blog and write down my feelings and things that happen in my day to day life, but sometimes my day to day life makes it to busy for me to blog. I have been going to bed at 7:30pm! I never go to bed that early, I don't know what it is, I just must need some sleep!

I am going to post some pics from my trip and tell some stories of shizz that happened while I was away, just not tonight, I am to tired LOL!!!

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MOMSTAR

        

I love traveling to different places to see different things and experience new sights! On the other hand, there are things I absolutely dispise about traveling! Here are a few of the things I dispise:

1. I HATE packing! I can never seem to remember everything even though I have traveled on planes with them a thousand times! It seems like we spend more money when we get here on things I forgot then we actually spent on the plane tickets!

2. I could never go through security again and it would be too soon! I have to take take everyone's shoes off and put them back on and then all of our shit is scattered all over the pace and you have to find it like you are in some kind of scavenger hunt or something! I really hate that!!

3. Sitting at the terminal is for the birds! You have to get there so early just to sit in the terminal and wait for the plane! Half the time you sit there for a long time just for them to tell you your flight has been delayed! Talk about a kick in the balls, I feel like I want to go crazy the second they say the flight is delayed!! Where are you going to go? What are you going to do with two wild children that just want to get on an airplane? Most of the time it is to early in the morning to drink!!!

4. Another thing I could totally do without is arriving! It is so annoying when you have to find yor luggage on the carousel, you never know which one is yours and half the time you grab the wrong one! Everyone is in a complete tailspin to make sure they grab the right luggage before it goes all the way back in the black hole! Once it goes in the black hole there is a another set of issues! If you accidently grab the wrong suitcase, you get all weird because you never know what they have in there bag, then you feel like "they" are looking for you

5. Then you have to find your car! Whoever is picking you up has to stay in the line and you are frantically looking while trying to watch to make sure your kids don't run in the road and no one takes your luggage! It is such a clusterfuck!! The best part is, you usually have more luggage then arms to carry it all, so some person of interest stranger you don't know has to help you carry your luggage across to the waiting car! What a complete disaster it usually turns out to be!

6. I am usually starving by the time we arrive at our destination, since all they give you on flights these days in air and water! Nothing ever sounds good and no one can ever agree on what to eat! When we do finally decide on what to eat, nobody really likes the food, we just went because it was the easiest place to go! I don't know if that happens to you, but it sure happens to me on more then one occasion! I am speaking from major experience here people!

7. My last and final thought, one of the biggest pet peeves of mine, I usually sit in front of or behind the person that farts the whole flight!! Everytime they make a move it seems like they are farting! It is like I have a permanent fart cloud around my seat!! The best part is, it is not my fart cloud!!! It stinks so bad and it makes me just want to say over the intercom, "Exscuse me, but can whoever is sitting in the seat in front of me or behind me, I can't tell which row you are in, can you please stop farting because all the hair in my nose is burned to a crisp and we still have a long flight left! I feel sick to my stomach as is and your gassy ass is not helping one bit!! Thank you passengers and have a safe rest of your flight" I don't know if that would make the smell go away, but I would sure feel better!!


That is all I can think of right now! I will get back to you if I can think of anything else


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The other day I drank some Kool-Aid and forgot how much I loved it! My kids picked it up at the store and I bought it by accident. They found it in the closet ans my husband made it therefore I tried it. OMG! The minute I drank it I returned to being a kid again when I used to drink it all the time. I remembered when we used to eat the powder out of the container and our mouths would be so red and we would tell my parents that we didn't eat any! What were we thinking, it looked like we got shot in the mouth they were so red!

Since I had it the other day, I have ventured out to drink more then just the cherry. I tried the grape, fruit punch, and of course the classic, cherry! I love it all and think it will be my new favorite drink from now on! I am going to divorce crystal light and re-marry kool aid after all these years! Sometimes an old flame is better then a new and improved flame, you know what I mean?

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